Coffee for Breakfast

I Know...

2012-02-17T08:31:00.001-06:00

Why should I feel discouraged, why should the shadows come,Why should my heart be lonely, and long for heav’n and home,When Jesus is my portion? My constant Friend is He:His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me;His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.Refrain:I sing because I’m happy, I sing because I’m free,For His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.“Let not your heart be troubled,” His tender word I hear,And resting on His goodness, I lose my doubts and fears;Though by the path He leadeth, but one step I may see;His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me;His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.Whenever I am tempted, whenever clouds arise,When songs give place to sighing, when hope within me dies,I draw the closer to Him, from care He sets me free;His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me;His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.

K.I.S.S. (keep it simple, silly)

2012-02-16T15:51:00.000-06:00

Using what I have...In a quest to simplify this year, I'm working very hard at NOT bringing useless items in my home. I read Organized Simplicity by Tsh Oxenreider last month (free on my Kindle!) and it really struck a chord with me.A few months ago, right before moving, we cleaned our ridiculous garage and had a sale. The amount of things we sold, gave away, or just trashed was astounding. I'm not a hoarder by definition of that disgusting tv show, but it is amazing what items we carry around with us...or store!I decided to be relentless in this quest. If it was sitting in an unpacked box (since the last move) I had to get serious about whether or not it was really worth owning. My only legitimate excuse for this monstrosity was the fact of fitting more into less square footage. There were items I wasn't willing to part with. The old rule of "if you haven't used it in a year, you don't need it" doesn't apply to ALL things! For example, I have tons of photos and special momentos from my children or lost loved ones. These items deserve to be stored properly though and not sitting in unorganized boxes in my garage. My husband would also appreciate the garage being used as it was designed...parking the car!!!The big garage clean-out and move was a very freeing experience. Most of the items that we did keep sat in storage for a while and that further helped us realize what items we really needed. Now, fast forward to our new home. Even though the square footage has increased and the storage in this house is amazing, I have realized how free I feel.I plan to work through Tsh's book. I still have a lot of work to do.First of all, I'm trying to make this house into a home. This is something I'm usually pretty good to do quickly. This move...? not so expedient.As I decorate I'm asking myself about the various items two questions. Is this useful? Is this beautiful? Not everything is making the cut.Simplifying isn't all that simple.

2012, One Month In

2012-01-31T21:23:00.001-06:00

Well this month was quite eventful!!!

•My new little very first grandbaby girl and I had a week to get acquainted! Her mommy, daddy, and her cute little self visited at my house. Just to let everyone know, she is the most perfect baby... Ever! Gorgeous!
Her parents are pretty cute too.;)

•My oldest daughter, Courtney, surprised us all with a wedding. Hers. We didn't even know she had a boyfriend until a few weeks ago. Again, gorgeous. She made a beautiful bride. I hope her day was everything she wanted. Twenty-three and as independent as always. I know her biggest dream of a wedding was for it to only be about her and her husband. I think that was accomplished. :)

•We have found a new church home in our new hometown. Awesome presence of God! Freedom in worship, unity in spirit, and love. Sunday morning service was like a cool drink of water to quench our thirst for more and like a burning fire to ignite our hearts to follow God's call. It's been too long and I can't wait to go back! :) :) :)
The girlies (Kaitlyn, Kyla, and Aubree) went to youth group the Wednesday before and all enjoyed it. Sounds like a fit for our whole family! Answered prayer!!!

•Our new home is coming along. I'm concentrating mostly on the main living area. Painting is completed in the living room and dining room. I've finished a couple of crocheted throw pillows and have two fabric throw pillows to sew. I need curtains for three windows in the dining room. We need to hang a couple of things still. My cute husband did an awesome job painting. My cute son helped.
Big thanks to my guys!

•We visited with my wonderful in-laws this month. It had been way too long! The distance between us (miles) and the crazy complicated schedule we have had in the last few years has made our visits far too infrequent. I love my MIL. My FIL too. They raised a wonderful son who loves his family dearly. That isn't something that happened by chance. That is a truth I live everyday because a mom and a dad took the time needed to teach their son (my husband) what is important in life.

•My goal for this year is to simplify! This is a plan that should touch every part of my life. Some things are NOT worth my time, my effort, or my money.
I want to live my life more fully concentrating on the things of most importance. It's all about priorities. God first. He deserves my best efforts. He deserves the first fruits of my time, effort, and money. Family is next and is so important to me. God called me to minister to them. This is why I breathe...
To tell them about Jesus and demonstrate His love to them. :)
Everything else falls somewhere beneath these two. I will use this year to figure out exactly where.

New year, new family members, new town, new church, new goals...
Here we go 2012!

***I will try to upload some pics to go with my post so check back.:)

Books I've Loved

2011-11-07T07:32:00.001-06:00

I have a goal of reading, on average, about two books per month. There are no rules here. Two books just seem to be the amount I can handle. I love to read at night mostly. It relaxes my mind that tends to think too much! I have almost finished my quota for the year. I'm busy but in a different way and it has allowed for more time to read.

I find it very interesting which books seem to find their way into my life.
So many over the last few years have been so right on time. I believe that God directs my path in everything, including the books I read.

I read a wide variety depending on my mood. I usually follow a heavy thought provoking book with some light-hearted fiction, or maybe a biography.

This year I added some children's books. I sometimes pre-read a book I plan to assign to my daughters. I also decided I would love to read some books I missed when I was younger.

Some of my favorites this year have been:

My favorite children's book was
Bud, Not Buddy by Christopher Paul Curtis. This book was lol funny and heart warming. I recommend this book to be read aloud.

My favorite bedtime books this year were written by Beverly Lewis. The setting in Amish country was peaceful and relaxing. I'm not saying there wasn't page turning conflict though. I definitely couldn't wait to read what happened next.

My favorite new-to-me author this year was Sandra Dallas. I can't believe it took me so long to discover her. I'm looking forward to reading many more by her.

I finished the House of Hope series by Neta Jackson. I loved this series as well as her original Yada Yada Prayer Group series.

The Help by was probably one of my favorite reads this year! I loved it. I found the movie enjoyable as well. They seemed to stick very close to the story.

Get Out Of That Pit by Beth Moore had been on my shelf for a few years. I finally read it this year. I can't believe I waited so long. This was my first Beth Moore book to read. It truly impacted the way I view the last few years of my life.

Set Apart Femininity by Leslie Ludy helped to set my mind back on some strong convictions. I remembered how important it is to hold on to the things of God. I also realized areas of compromise that had wormed their way in my life.

The book that really touched my life the most this year was Same Life, New Story by Jan Silvious!
This book was also a Bible study. I was totally engrossed and journalled through this one. I filled half of a composition notebook. This book helped to give me hope of a brand new future. I was able to understand that even though I can't re-write my personal history, I can and will start a brand new chapter! I was able to clearly see the need to put the past where it belongs and not lose one more second of the beautiful present.

I always love to see what others are reading to create a wishlist of future books. I hope someone enjoys some of my suggestions.

The Golden Rule is for Grown-Ups Too!

2011-10-29T20:08:00.002-05:00

Most of the time, it seems to me, disagreements happen because of simple misunderstandings. Other times though, "it goes much deeper than that". (to quote a very misguided individual)
Those are the words used to explain a person's wrong actions and attempt to make it sound spiritual at the same time.
Well, that's not a new trick. Satan quoted scripture to Jesus after he had fasted for forty days and nights. I didn't just miss that. Did you?
Jesus had been fasting. What happens to your body during a fast? I've personally never fasted for forty days but I'm pretty sure my flesh would be pretty weak.
So, here comes the enemy, trying to sound "all spiritual", while simultaneously attacking while you are in a weakened condition.

Wouldn't a person be able to be used of God in a much deeper way if they only used discernment, and maybe a little common sense?

Let's say, for example, you have prayed to be used of God. You have a made up mind to serve God.
Your prayers may go something like this...
Lord, send me where You choose. I want to do what is acceptable in Your eyes. Send me to the lost. (lost--that's a big word!) let me be Your hands and feet. Help me to love the unlovable. Send me to minister to the broken-hearted Lord.

Basically we are asking God to send us those who are in a weakened condition!!!

Then, when He answers that prayer, what do we do?

Well, hopefully we obey God with the people He sends our way.
Hopefully we keep in mind that these "lost" people are hurting. Perhaps they have just came through the biggest battle of their life. Maybe they are battle-weary. We should stop and try to imagine ourselves in that weakened condition and how we would like to be treated.

Do we really love the people God entrusts us with? Or is it maybe not glamorous enough? Sometimes life can get dirty, ugly, and unacceptable. Does that mean the people God sends us are dirty, ugly, and unacceptable? Maybe. But not to Him.

I know in my heart that I have walked through these last three years of my life for God's purpose. On the other side of this stretch of awful, God has taught me some awesome truths. How can I love hurting people if I haven't experienced hurt? How can I extend grace if I haven't experienced God's grace in my own broken life?

I can truly and freely say that I have experienced both sides of this. I have sat up high and lofty in my self created perfect little world. I am a rule follower by nature and I set out to do things the 'right' way. I saw children (much older than my toddlers) go astray. I saw marriages falling apart. I saw dirty, ugly, and unacceptable...to a certain degree. I didn't realize I was looking through a one way mirror.
In this very self righteous state of mind we just can't understand why other people can't just get it right.
Scary that my life was lived in such one dimension.
I've experienced dirty, ugly and unacceptable in the last few years. My eyes were opened to ugliness that I don't care to share. I witnessed dirty in my own life and family that I hope to never revisit. Unacceptable are a few things that I had to learn to accept. Unacceptable is also the way I got to feel.
The lack of compassion, understanding, and friendship I experienced in the last few years was more than compensated for in the amount of wisdom I gained from experience.
I can't help but think I more than likely encountered many who had prayed to be used by God. I also can't help but think I have also shown a lack of compassion, understanding, and friendship to hurting people even as I have prayed to be used of God.
I thank God now, on this side of the battle. There is nothing better to give you a good perspective on how to truly be used of God in the life of a hurting person than the humbling power of pain in your own life. The very things that feel as if they will take you down for the count are the things God will use to teach you to look at others with His perspective.
So, yet again, I will cry out to God...

Lord, send me where You choose. I want to do what is acceptable in Your eyes. Send me to the lost. (lost--that's a big word!) let me be Your hands and feet. Help me to love the unlovable. Send me to minister to the broken-hearted Lord.

Hopefully I will obey God with the people He sends my way.
Hopefully I will keep in mind that these "lost" people are hurting. Perhaps they have just came through the biggest battle of their life. Maybe they are battle-weary. I will stop and try to imagine myself, not so long ago, in that weakened condition and how I would have liked to have been treated.

Holiday Lists

2011-10-11T08:54:00.000-05:00

My fingers are itching to sew. With all the new babies all around me, my creative side wants to make every cute thing I see. I've managed to do a little but that is how much time I have...little.
It's just one of those busy seasons in life. Not the sports season kind of busy (yet) but the season of life kind of busy.
My list-making self also has a ton of homemade Christmas gift ideas that will more than likely not happen.
I love the holidays but this year they will be a little different. Not a bad kind of different. Just different.
We have spent almost twenty years forming our family traditions. I love the way we spend Thanksgiving.
Usually, with the exception of only a couple of years, we are all together. The seven of us enjoy our traditional Thanksgiving dinner and spending the day together. Most years we enjoy watching my husband put up our Christmas tree. He is very picky and doesn't let us help. Lol
This task has involved anything from power tools to well, whatever he finds useful. The tree is always beautiful. He makes me smile.
My family enjoys having all the wonderful leftovers to themselves.
I know many families who have to divide their time between two sets of in-laws and the day just becomes stressed rather than enjoyable.
I'm so thankful we decided early on to stay home on thanksgiving.
This year will be different but wonderful all the same. It will be near impossible to have all my kids together. I suspected this would happen as they grew older. We more than likely will enjoy our dinner with extended family this year. (so glad we taught our daughters to cook!)
Traditions are wonderful but we can't neglect to let new ones form as our families grow and get older. As young parents it's good to stick with how you do things each year. Your kids grow to look forward to these small things. It's also a great thing to be flexible enough to allow some change.
If not, you could very easily miss out on the blessing of new gifts that God would love to bring into your life.
So I'm looking forward to the holidays this year. The most desired gift on my personal list is the gift of new beginnings. New babies, new traditions, and new surroundings.
My list this year is filled with a lot less things to do, and a lot more time to just enjoy.

The Adventure of a Lifetime

2011-10-09T08:14:00.009-05:00

Sometimes we take off on an unplanned spontaneous trip. It starts as just a little side road. It seems our curiosity can sometimes get the better of us. These trips can be likened to a thrill ride at an amusement park. Then, as abruptly as a theme park roller coaster, this little adventure comes to a screeching halt. As fun as it seemed at the moment, it ends with gut-wrenching regret as we hurl the contents of our empty life upon the sidewalk.
This thrill ends with a solemn vow to ourselves to never make that mistake again. Upon a closer look we notice that rickety roller coaster. The rust of a few too many rides makes us question what on earth seemed so appealing about that ride?
Come to think of it, where are all it's former riders? One look around reveals the ugly truth. There is no one. Unless you count the few surviving victims that hide in the darkness of the surrounding woods.
Then, as undeniable as a knife in the back, we see that this ride has a name. The billboard was in plain view. This roller coaster sits off to the side, proudly displaying it's name...Miss Take.
It seems that taking this unplanned little trip was indeed a MISTAKE. Now, its time to exit this little theme park. Lesson learned.
As you try to get yourself together by wiping the remains of vomit off your clothing, you run as fast as you can back to the MAIN road. This road, as you know, is a one-way street. You are so very aware of its destination. It leads to the only place you have ever really wanted to be.
This place is the real adventure that was predestined to be yours. In the dimness of night, it seems that "someone" may have caused an obstruction to your once perfect vision. This stumbling block has made tripping in the night inevitable. As you approach your car sitting at the side of the MAIN ROAD, you notice the stinging pain of a life full of wounds and abrasions. With your real adventure in such close reach you know it's not time to give up. Just a few more steps through this seemingly impossible terrain. It occurs to you that when you took this side trip the pathway seemed clear. Where did all of these briers, thorns, and rocks come from?
Even though you are almost there, you realize that many have been down this path before. Many never made it back as you start to notice the fragments of their lives are the very things you are stumbling over.
As you stumble over yet one more deep pit in this road that seems to be getting longer by the moment, you decide that maybe a little rest would do you good. Perhaps, if you just took a break, you could even find a shortcut.
As you contemplate the path before you there seems to be two options. As you squint your eyes in searching out the correct route you notice something you had missed before. Are there road signs marking the pathway? Remembering that you had carefully packed a few essentials from your car in your bag, you feel around the contents until you find your BOOK.
Many times in your life you the words from this book have shown you the way to go. The words have even cleared a way when there was no way.
Clearly one of the two paths seems shorter, but you understand somehow that the shorter path will only lead to destruction. Actually as the sign comes into focus, you realize the shorter path will only lead you right back to Miss Take. As deceptive as this path may be, you've learned a little on this adventure.
Before setting off on the other trail that will lead you to your promised destination, you decide you need a new plan. You know that this trip will fulfill all the desires of your heart, but it won't be easy. Suddenly, as if by divine providence you notice some items left at the beginning of the path to destruction. Someone had gone that ugly path before you and apparently decided their load would be too heavy. As you look through the items it becomes clear that these items will be exactly what you need. (one man's trash is another man's treasure!)
How could someone take off on a journey without being prepared? You shudder as you realize this poor guy couldn't have made it far.
You pick up his suit of armour so carelessly thrown by the side of the road.
As you begin to place the helmet on your head, you realize it fits perfectly. Suddenly as if a wave of the ocean had swept over, you feel safe. You are not about to be deceived again though. You waste little time trying on all the pieces. They are labeled, just like the helmet, SALVATION. There is TRUTH, RIGHTEOUSNESS, and PEACE. You then pick up the shield that is clearly marked FAITH. Seems that this shield has taken a few hits for the team, but it is the most sturdy shield you've ever seen. Last but certainly not least, you pick up your book. It has the letters
S-W-O-R-D across the front.
As you determine within yourself that you will persevere, you set off on the path with the road sign Abundant Life. You already know this trip isn't going to be easy. You were on this path when you were lured in the wrong direction. This time though, you are clothed in armour, your weapons are not of this world, and you determine to pray continuously for the entire trip.
As you take your first steps along this path something amazing begins to happen. The stumbling blocks seem to bow down and smooth over. They are now the very things you are walking over. They are beneath your feet. They have indeed become your stepping stones!

This story may seem to stop just at the very beginning, and it does. This is the story of a life redeemed and the best part is yet to come.

Get A Life

2011-10-06T11:16:00.002-05:00

It would be impossible to not notice the increased amount of blog traffic. It makes for an interesting study in people.

I started this blog over 4 years ago. I like to write and thought it would be a great way to share projects and photos with friends and family.
Occassionally I share a link to other blogs I find interesting and whatnot.
I never thought anyone would find it of interest other than the handful I told the address. Nor was it a secret for those who might stumble upon it.

Then...
After going through a horrendous, hideous, and word hurling break-up, my oldest daughter decided to write.
She, like me, finds writing as an outlet. A way to share her heart when feeling misunderstood. I encouraged her to write from her heart with all the honesty she could muster. She did. I am proud of her.
She is not shocked by the twisting of her words. This is not the first time in her 23 years that people have raged an all out evil war against her.
She is the toughest 5'3" female I've ever known. God knew what to equip her with in this life. He knew what opposition she would face.
God is like that. His word says He goes before us. She is in training for something that alot of us will only be able to observe, from behind a mask.

My kids, they teach me alot. Most of all authenticity. Which leads me back to how this is an interesting study of people.

My Lubbock blog traffic increases tremendously the day after she is purposefully provoked. What does this tell me? Nothing I didn't already know. People love drama. When it dies down they try to revive it. Chatter amongst some groups, who should know better, grows exponentially.
Here is a big lesson...if you are looking for a person's faults, you WILL find them. Why try so hard to fault find when she clearly and humbly admits them herself. Not something I've heard any of you do. But again, I removed myself so I'm not exactly curious about it. I understand completely that you have faults, as do I.
Main point being, if you don't like what she is writing at least gather up the courage to stop reading her blog. Simple.

I love what she so clearly stated...

"He’s letting me catch my breath, and allowing me to be consumed by His fire, His Spirit, His forgiveness. He is feeding me at this very moment, in this town, in the presence of my enemies. Those who meant me harm are reading this blog as He fills me up, anoints me, and prepares me for this journey. Some of them will resent me, because their wicked plots did not succeed. Others will judge me, because they see my sin and ignore His grace. But a few… A few people that read this will take heart in my struggles, and cry to my Jesus. That’s more than I can hope for."

But anyone reading her blog to fuel their own gossip fest never caught that part. They were thrown off by her brutal honesty. Probably because it hit them between their eyes.
Some of us could boast in the fact that we may have more control of our tongue. Most could not though,
whether you express yourself through writing or you gossip over lunch...
God hears it ALL. You know, He even knows the intent of our hearts.

Also, I feel the need to express my thoughts when private converstions, taking place in the privacy of my home, are the very things used to provoke. Please understand that by the time it reaches you through a text...
#1 it wasn't any of your business
&
#2 doubtful that a 3rd or 4th party could keep their facts straight.

I will be deleting this blog just to start a new one. I can't delete this chapter of my life but I can start a new one.
My new blog won't have a live traffic feed in the sidebar.
My God is doing a new thing in my life. I can't wait!

***also, that one random visitor every other week or so...get your own life. This one is already taken!

Today...

2011-09-22T11:42:00.003-05:00

After spending time with the Lord this morning and writing 17 pages! in my journal, I have decided to delete yesterday's post. That was my heart yesterday but not at all the direction God is taking me.
I'm so thankful for His loving correction and for His hand upon my family during a difficult time.
Not matter how strong the opposition God is God. His promises stand true and His word will not come back void.
I love you Jesus!

Unshakable Faith

2011-09-18T09:29:00.005-05:00

I'm walking in one of those shifty places at the moment, just trying to find some firm footing.
It's one of those spots that I'm grasping at the correct way to handle.
It has never bothered me to do things differently than others. My choices in life are sometimes a little unconventional. I'm certainly not the only person I know who homeschools, but I was when we started. I'm certainly not the only woman who has given birth at home. Women have been doing so since the beginning. On the other hand, it wasn't something all my friends were doing. They all thought I had lost my mind.
Trusting God sounds so simple. It is and it's not. I know what He has promised. I see Him working before my very eyes. I know that He can make something beautiful from ashes. He has shown me time and time again.
If you ask me to trust God with you for something He has promised, I will. I'll believe with an unshakable faith. For you.
Why do I sometimes find it hard when it's for me?
God blessed me with an amazing set of arrows (children). They are unique individuals. I'm not trying to give myself any credit here but God has shown me from the beginning how to let them be who He created.
He gave them each a very unique calling. They will reach this dying world in ways I could never imagine. He has lovingly and gently guided me in their upbringing.
I have not always handled this huge task in the way I was called. I have had to overcome some obstacles of my own. Mostly...fear.
God did not give me a spirit of fear though. This is what makes me press on.
When you put a child in God's hands you have to do it continually. I have at times been my own biggest critic. The self-dialog goes something like this...

"You gave this child to God so why do you keep taking him/her back?"

I'm learning that this is not exactly the case. I'm not 'taking them back'. They were already His. My worry (aka FEAR) sometimes tries to interfere with His plan though.

I'm facing a trial with a child at this very moment. I'm trusting God but I'm a little shaky. I know the outcome will be as God has planned.
I don't want to interfere with the way God moves. I've been careful with my words. I've probably projected my fears unto my husband. We haven't disagreed on how to handle this situation but I've told him 'my plan'. Yuck.
God didn't make just me a parent. He made us both parents. I need to trust God with my husband's parenting. He loves this child just as much as I do!

God has given me my answer. Respect my husband as my children's father. God will guide him in the decisions he makes. He made us partners in life. When I'm on shaky ground I have someone who will stand with me in faith. No one other than God Himself can love this child as we do.

If my husband sees one of our children in a situation that could be harmful I need to trust his insight. He was appointed by God to protect his family.

Who you allow to be in authority over your children can have huge consequences. Who you allow them to spend time with can have huge consequences. God expects us to teach them and protect them. Even when they think a situation is harmless. Otherwise, kids would be making all the decisions.
It's hard when you feel like you have to make a decision for them that will break their heart. It's hard when you see danger and they don't.

I can recall a bible lesson we had years ago. The lesson explained how God put children under an umbrella of protection. While under the authority of their parents they were safe. Stepping outside this umbrella allowed the fiery darts of Satan to penetrate them.
God in all his wisdom doesn't make mistakes. He places families together for His purpose.
Thank you Jesus for your umbrella of protection through the storms of life. Thank you for every member of my family.
As I close this post I'm already feeling the firm footing of standing on the Rock.
Thank you God for giving me an awesome husband and father of my children. Alone this decision is hard, but together we can believe, with faith unshakable.

From Bitter to Better

2011-09-14T21:42:00.005-05:00

My earlier post came about because of a recent bible study. I was studying the book of Ruth last week. I love Ruth. This time though, I studied from Naomi's point of view.
Here are some notes from my journal.

Oh Naomi, how much more closely I can relate to you right now than Ruth. I've always liked the book of Ruth...from Ruth's perspective. Looking at this story from a different point of view has been eye-opening.
First of all, when life came tumbling down around her, Naomi did two things that are not acceptable in church circles. She changed her name from 'Pleasantness' to 'Bitterness', and she blamed God.

(Naomi answered the people, "Don't call me Naomi [pleasant]. Call me Mara [bitter], because the Almighty has made my life very sad. When I left, I had all I wanted, but now, the LORD has brought me home with nothing...)

BUT, God was about to move in her life in ways she had never dreamed! God had already set in motion His plan of redemption. The hero, Boaz, was there all along. God had also placed loyal hardworking Ruth in Naomi's life.
The characters in this wonderful next chapter of Naomi's life were in place. Boaz was Naomi's wealthy relative. Ruth was Naomi's trusting, walking-by-faith daughter.
We never know just who God has placed in our lives for moments when our story is about to take a dramatic twist in plot!

Naomi had counted her losses, blamed God, and become bitter. She had decided to leave Moab and her widowed daughters-in-law behind to return to Judah. She had received news that the famine was over there (in Judah) and so decided to return amongst her own people. I guess she decided her life was over, but at least she would die amongst her own people---and maybe she wouldn't starve.
Even though she was bitter it was like she was just making the best of her hopeless situation. She had given up on all the dreams of her life. Basically she had just decided to return home, give up, and die in her bitterness.
She felt she was too old---too much time had passed---her losses were too great for anything good to come of her life...

Oh how I know that thought process! I can relate to the bitterness of Naomi. Life didn't pan out just exactly the way I planned. My dreams have felt dead and unredeemable. I have at times decided to just live out the remainder of my life as it is. Total loss of control. I too have felt too old--- like too much time has passed---like my losses were too great for anything good to come of my life...
I chose for a time to feel bitter. I also blamed God.

But just like Naomi---God has already planned the next chapter of my life. He already has the characters, props, and plot set in motion.
All I have to do is walk through the pages of my life obediently, like Ruth and Naomi. God is about to move in my life in ways I never dreamed.
And for the record, while I wallowed in my self-pity, God never left my side!
I love you Jesus!

*This was written with the assumption that you are familiar with the book of Ruth. If you don't know this awesome story of God's powerful redemption, please read it!!!

What's In a Name???

2011-09-14T11:35:00.007-05:00

I spent some time this morning looking up the meaning of some names. It was a very interesting search. I believe there is alot of truth in a person's name. There are many places in the bible that God gave people and places specific names with a purpose. I used baby name books when naming my children, but honestly I didn't choose their names by meaning. I just chose names I liked. Even if I didn't use wisdom in my choices I still believe God put his strong influence in the decision making process.

My children's names very much fit their personalities.
Courtney Ann = from the court; gracious
Shelby Dean = sheltered; leader
Kaitlyn Noel = pure; joy
Kyla Cheyenne = lovely; tribal name
(aka lovely wild Indian)
Aubree Grace = noble, bright; grace of God
(aka elf ruler)

While searching I also looked up my husband's name.
Randy Eugene = handsome; well born

and mine..
Ruler; gracious

Sounds like my family. Sometimes there seems like 'too many chiefs and not enough indians' around here. Other days I'm completelyhumbled that God placed such strong personalities in one home.
I couldn't imagine them having any other name than the one that God gave them.

*As an interesting side-note try looking up names of the people you encounter. It may give you a better perspective of their personality. I did. I discovered that a particular person who has attempted to be a thorn in my side has an interesting name-meaning.
(rival; striving; admiring; industrious)
Hmmm, Ruler vs. Rival? Seems like there was a pre-determined outcome...

I Have Alot to Say

2011-09-13T18:28:00.003-05:00

I'm having computer issues. Drafting a new post on this phone is annoying, to say the least. Hopefully I will return to posting on a regular basis soon! I have alot to say! Lol
Our schedule has become very full again. It's that time of year. I want to share a few things on my heart. I would like to post more about homeschooling. I want to share some things I've been learning.
Most of all I want to share the purpose of this blog.
Coming soon...

Promises from God in the book of Joel

2011-08-28T00:04:00.001-05:00

25 And I will restore to you the years that the locust hath eaten, the cankerworm, and the caterpillar, and the palmerworm, my great army which I sent among you.

26 And ye shall eat in plenty, and be satisfied, and praise the name of the LORD your God, that hath dealt wondrously with you: and my people shall never be ashamed.

27 And you shall know that I am in the midst of Israel, and that I am the LORD your God, and none else: and my people shall never be ashamed.

28 And it shall come to pass afterward, that I will pour out my spirit upon all flesh;
and your sons and your daughters shall prophecy, your old men shall dream dreams, your young men shall see visions:

29 And also upon the servants and upon the handmaids in those days will I pour out my spirit.

30 And I will shew wonders in the heavens and in the earth, blood, fire, and pillars of smoke.

31 The sun shall be turned into darkness, and the moon into blood, before the great and the terrible day of the LORD come.

32 And it shall come to pass, that whosoever shall call on the name of the LORD shall be delivered: for in mount Zion and in Jerusalem shall be deliverance, as the LORD hath said, and in the remnant whom the LORD shall call.

My Fabulous Life

2011-08-25T19:57:00.007-05:00

Feeling SUCH an urge to update my blog...
Just wanted to let any curious readers know that all is well at the Bracknell home. (just in case you were wondering)
I have another urge to say:
"The truth is... I'm with a wonderful Christian man, living the dream...wonderful family, wonderful job, fabulous life!"
LOL
So, let's keep it REAL here.
The real honest truth is this...
I am married to an awesome husband who loves the Lord. He is wonderful because I am not living in a fantasy world. He is wonderful because he loves me so much he admits his shortcomings. He can do this, as can I, because our love is unconditional. I am definitely living out my dreams. Is this because everything is perfect? No. It's because everything is imperfect and I don't live under the pressure of having to pretend.
My wonderful family...
Yes I have a wonderful family! They are wonderful to me because they are mine. If you knew them like I do, you would have to agree! I'm very proud of my family. We have had to overcome alot of adversity that Satan has thrown at us. The cool thing about my family is we stick together...no matter what! Truthfully, sometimes my kids fight. (gasp!) Truthfully, sometimes my husband and I fight. (gasp!) The biggest truth I have come to know over the last few years is this:
Sometimes as a family we may hurt each other but that is only because we have confidence of our strong love! If you don't believe me watch how we can defend one another. Proven fact!
Now, about that wonderful job. Well the truth is I enjoy working. I've just never had to. I don't mean for that to sound arrogant at all. I know

some women don't have another option. My husband and I together decided it was important to us that I stay home to raise our children. We
have made sacrifices to do so at times, but that was a priority for US!
So the honest truth about my wonderful job is that I love it! I get to stay home, homeschool my kids, and devote my time to my husband.Sometimes on stressful days (because I'm being honest) I wish I had a job outside my house, but then I realize No One could love
my family like I do! This is important stuff to me! It's important to my husband! It's important to God! God gave me this particular husband and
these particular kids as a ministry. He called me to be my husband's wife. He called me to be my children's mother. I'm not afraid to love
them...just as God made them. They are wonderful, faults and ALL. Afterall, they love me inspite of my shortcomings which are too many to list!!!
My life IS fabulous! Not because of perfection. I gave that up a long time ago. My life is fabulous because of it's imperfections. My family serves PERFECTION. His name is Jesus. He died for us because he knew we would screw this thing up. Only through our imperfections were we able to see Perfection at work doing Restoration!
Yep, I have a fabulous life!!!

What I've Been Reading

2011-07-21T07:23:00.004-05:00

I haven't posted in a while, but thought I would drop in to share a couple of new or new-to-me blogs I've been enjoying!

I ran across this while browsing this morning. God is always right on time!
I guess this is just something you cannot fully understand until you walk through it. When we have young children we strive to do all the right things thinking the end result will be the deserved payoff for all our efforts. As we grow through life we learn a little...

Another blog I would love to share is Find and Seek, written by my very own oldest daughter! Very gifted writer who writes from her heart. She is not afraid to be exactly who God called her to be.

Hope you enjoy reading!
I hope to post new pictures soon of some finished projects!

Softball 2011

2011-05-10T17:28:00.005-05:00

Homeschool Basketball Nationals 2011

2011-03-16T22:04:00.006-05:00

We arrived in Springfield on Monday, March 14th. We will be leaving tomorrow, six days later. Homeschool Basketball Nationals is a very tiring week, but one we look forward to each year. I'm not sure how many games we attended this week. There were alot! My 14 year old daughter had 5 games. She had a great week with her friends, and made some wonderful memories!
I'm exhausted and longing for my own bed and some home cooked food. Even though I'm feeling this way, next year, during spring break...
I'm sure we will be back!

2011-03-04T19:55:00.003-06:00

Have you ever met someone completely impressive? Of course we all probably have. It just seems that my idea of impressive has changed through the years.
I'm sure that as a teenager I would have been thrilled with meeting a celebrity. Maybe Rick Springsteen? Lol. Maybe In my 20's I would have appreciated meeting any number of successful career minded people. That would have impressed me and given me hope for my future. As I headed into my 30's I became a fan of a few high profile homeschool speakers. I definitely would have been impressed to have personally met a few of them.
Now, as I have entered my 40's, my priorities have changed. The absolute most impressive people I meet are authentic. I'm impressed with a person who is not afraid to be exactly who God made them. They know they are a forgiven sinner,
covered by the blood of Jesus. Their life and their words are full of mercy and
grace. They give others what God has given them.
Now, that is impressive.
I know a particular lady like this. She is just a homeschool mom like myself. She has kids involved in the same activity as mine. I have seen her on a weekly basis (excluding summer) for three years. She loves the Lord, her family, and her friends. In three years I've never heard her gossip or be rude. I've never even detected a bad mood. She always has a smile. I know she isn't perfect. She doesn't even pretend to be. She is tender-hearted and not afraid to admit she falls short at times.
I appreciate her authenticity.
Yes, that is an impressive quality.

To My Valentine...Love Him!

2011-02-06T12:32:00.002-06:00

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Home Decor

2011-02-04T07:08:00.004-06:00

I'm working on several projects. Most of them are home decorating projects. There are lots of pillow projects, quilts/duvet covers, and curtains to sew. We have been in our new home for around six months and I am starting to feel behind.
Decorating a new home, for me, takes a little time. I normally have a few ideas immediately, but some ideas come with time. I have to take time to live in my new space before knowing exactly how we will use it.
One new to me idea is the 80-20 rule.
According to this rule, you use 20% of your home 80% of the time. I've decided to put my focus on that 20%!
I don't work fast, but plan to post some before/after pictures this year of our progress. Or maybe just the "after" pictures!

In the works:
>Looking for some specific pieces of furniture for the living room.

>Patiently waiting on a special work of art from a favorite artist!

>Throw pillows for livingroom and dining room

>curtains for dining room

>complete re-do in Kyla and Aubree's room, including painting furniture, duvet covers, throw pillows, curtains, etc.

>Lots of pillows and curtains for Kaitlyn's room

>small decorating projects for master and guest bathrooms

>undecided on master bedroom

I find the planning process to be almost as much fun as the finished projects!
I can't wait to get started.

The Two Men in My Life

2011-01-17T10:35:00.005-06:00

(Sharing a page from my journal)
Today is the anniversary of two very significant days for me.
My dad's birthday. He would have been 65 today. Probably retiring from the telephone company. My life would have probably looked much different had he not been taken. He was only 33 years old. Now that I'm approaching 42 in less than a month, I see how very young he was.
I want to take a moment today though to thank God for the ten years I had with him. God used this man who was my daddy to instill some seeds within me that have taken root and continue to grow. So, thank You Lord for my Daddy, Cole Hays Jr. I miss him still, but he loved me with a love that will never die.
And, the other significant day...
18 years ago, I met the love of my life. We have had some rocky years, but they are enclosed like parenthesis with a love that I never knew my life would include! He is "The Man" that God gifted me with. I'm a blessed person to have known within my life, two men who love me unconditionally and make me want to be a better person.
One was taken from me way too soon, but in 10 short years, was able to teach me what real love consists of.
Had I not known this type of love I may not have recognized it when God decided to bring my wonderful husband into my life.
I like to think that my daddy was sitting by Jesus, discussing my future, when God handpicked my husband.
I can see my daddy smile at the choice, just as I do, every day.
Thank You Jesus for Randy Eugene Bracknell. Thank You for giving me the love of two men that will never die.

Pillow Talk

2011-01-05T16:02:00.005-06:00

I have been on a bit of a pillow making kick lately. This set was made for my mom for Christmas. I enjoyed the process of being creative. I started with the black and white toile and the green pom-pom trim. Other than that I had no other plan when I started.
I'm entering the front pillow (with black gathered section) in The Bogger's Pillow Party sponsored here.

Play along!

2010 It Was the Best of Times...

2011-01-02T12:30:00.004-06:00

My favorite new item on the first day of the year is a book. A book full of blank pages. I have always journaled off and on throughout my life. It is only more recent that I have consistently journaled. I'm not consistent in a daily sense, but consistent nontheless. I have managed to keep a yearly journal for the last couple of years.
These treasured books have some stories to tell, but I don't really share these most private thoughts on this blog. Someday, I possibly could, but for now I will keep these stories private. These stories are about the last couple of years of my life. The pages contain some of the absolute lowest points of my life. They also contain some of the most wonderful moments. I often wonder how I could live in such contrast.

It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair, we had everything before us, we had nothing before us, we were all going direct to heaven, we were all going direct the other way - in short, the period was so far like the present period, that some of its noisiest authorities insisted on its being received, for good or for evil, in the superlative degree of comparison only.
Charles Dickens, A Tale of Two Cities
English novelist (1812 - 1870)

I'm looking forward to filling the pages of the Story of My Life, 2011.

Sweet Sixteen!

2010-12-28T12:16:00.005-06:00

Happy Birthday Kaitlyn!!!

Christmas Sewing

2010-12-24T10:56:00.004-06:00

This blanket is for our brand new baby nephew! I can't wait to hold him!!!

Baby doll blanket and pillow, and "paper" doll pillow are for sisters, Reagan & Jasleen.

Pillow trio is for my mom.

The last two pillows are for nephews Triston and Owen.

I finally finished sewing Christmas gifts. I have never taken on so many projects for such a short amount of time. They all need to be wrapped before making the trip home for Christmas.

Sunday Doings

2010-12-12T11:37:00.004-06:00

On the menu:

Chicken Fried Steak
Mashed Potatoes and Gravy
Green Beans
Dinner Rolls
and...

Banana Pudding!

Ingredients:
1 (6 ounce) packages instant vanilla pudding
3 cups cold milk
1 (12 ounce) containers Cool Whip
1 can Eagle Brand Condensed Milk
1 box vanilla wafers
3 -4 bananas

Directions:
Whip pudding with milk as directed on the package.
Fold in Cool Whip and milk.
Layer wafers, bananas and pudding in a 13x9 dish.
Chill.

Just cleaning and cooking today. Trying to catch up so we can start over again on Monday!

Hopefully I can sneak in a little trip to the fabric store and do a little sewing. I'm working on a super cute outfit for Aubree. I also would love to finish all of my Christmas sewing projects. I am running out of time!

Projects

2010-12-08T08:45:00.002-06:00

A sneak peak at Courtney's quilt.

Pictured below is the vintage pillowcase baby quilt. I used the seam ripper on the pillowcase and then decided it was the perfect size for a baby blanket. I picked up the lavender and red from the print for the backing and binding. I loosely followed the directions in Last-Minute Patchwork + Quilted Gifts for the follow-the-lines baby quilt.

Secret Weapon

2010-12-08T07:22:00.003-06:00

Basketball season is a busy time around our house. I only have one daughter currently playing and it still consumes almost every day of the week. Sometimes we get too busy for dinner at home. Not only does this become costly, it also causes us to not have dinner together as a family way too often.
One thing I have tried to do while raising kids is have sit down meals together. I think dinner time is where so many memories are made.
I've had to re-think dinner time and come up with some creative solutions.
One of the most used appliances around here is the Crockpot. We aren't all always home at the same time anymore, but if I plan ahead we can all have a home cooked meal.

Last night we had a family favorite for a cold night.

Secret Ingredient Crockpot Chili

1 1/2 lb. hamburger meat
1 large can of crushed tomatoes
1 can of Rotel tomatoes
2 cans of Ranch Style beans
chili powder
cumin
garlic
onion
***1 can of pumpkin

Brown the ground beef with garlic and onion. Drain and add to crockpot. Add all other ingredients. Simmer all day on low until dinnertime! Easy!
I like to have a variety of toppings on hand. Our favorites are crackers, fritos, grated cheddar, sour cream, and green onion.

***This addition was a first last night. I had heard about this on another website. Great addition! The canned pumpkin cannot be detected. It changes the texture of the chili and makes it stretch for a large family. Also it is added nutrition.
Everyone in my family loved it. Shhhh!

Finished and Future Projects

2010-12-07T09:26:00.004-06:00

I am hoping to get some pictures of my latest projects up today...later. I have finished a baby quilt and Courtney's quilt. The baby quilt was just an idea that I had. It doesn't have a "home" as of yet. It is girly and I don't know of any new girl babies. I'm sure it will find a new baby soon.
Courtney's quilt is already four years old. She hand-pieced the quilt front when she was eighteen. It is several nine-patch squares.
During our latest move, I found it folded in her closet as I was packing. Having only recently starting to quilt, I thought I would attempt to finish it for her. I consulted with her on the colors for the back. As usual, the artist wanted something I never would have thought of. The front is black and hot pink. What did she want for backing? Orange. I didn't doubt her, but I never would have thought of o-r-a-n-g-e!
It didn't turn out to be a perfect squarish-rectangular quilt, but I love it. She, at twenty-two can now be the proud owner of a quilt that she and I both made. It also happens to be each of our first quilt! I have quilted a wallhanging and some baby size quilts, but this is my first full size quilt.
Even though she has watched the progress all along, it will be wrapped and given as a Christmas gift to her this year. My kids are very hard to surprise. I do plan to add a little coordinating pillow from the fabric scraps. She never reads my blog so I should be able to sneak that in.
I have another mother/daughter project in the works. Kyla and I will be making a Christmas quilt. A while back I found an old hand-pieced quilt top in an antique store. It looks like something my grandmother would have made. I love it. I found some flannel Christmas fabric in Saver's last week. Kyla has agreed to help me quilt it using the hand-tying method.
Aubree has a great love for embroidering, so she and I will probably come up with some kind of embroidery/quilting project.
I don't know when I will be able to talk Kaitlyn into helping me quilt something, but I would love to do this with all four of them at some point!

Edited to add:
Yesterday I crossed my fingers and threw Courtney's quilt in the washer with a Shout color grabber (just in case!). There was minimal running of dye. Not enough to be a problem. On the other hand, some of my "quilting" came loose! I hand tied a portion (about 1/3) with yarn. I'm so glad I didn't wrap this gift without washing first! Today I will re-do it using a more secure method of tying. Then I will post pictures.

Hand-made Christmas

2010-11-26T20:37:00.002-06:00

One of a handful of Christmas gifts I have made for this year. This will be given to my little great niece, Reagan. I was so happy to hear how she loves to wrap her baby dolls in blankets and carry them around.

Thanksgiving 2010

2010-11-26T09:51:00.004-06:00

A Little Late

2010-11-15T06:54:00.002-06:00

I'm running a little behind on the pillow challenge. I still have to make 5 out of 7 pillows. lol
They are planned. The first if for a friend. I promised her a pillow last summer, so I will work on it first.
Then, the remaining 4 will be large pillows for Kaitlyn's room. They should be fairly simple. I didn't finish the pillow challenge in 7 days, but maybe by day 14!

Pillow # 2

2010-11-10T10:14:00.009-06:00

Here are pictures of my pillow re-do from yesterday. It was pitiful.

The tassles were barely there. I decided to crochet some new ones. I happened to find some brown yarn left over from another project.

Here is the reconstructed pillow with four new tassles! This is not a great picture. I should have found a more neutral background.

Crocheted Baby Blanket

2010-11-10T09:55:00.004-06:00

I made this blanket last week for a friend at church. The pattern is from Posie gets Cozy. It is the Tiramisu Baby Blanket. I plan to make a few more to have on hand for baby showers. I'm thinking red with zebra ribbon.

PillowsPillowsPillows

2010-11-09T16:17:00.002-06:00

Yes, I am keeping up with the pillow challenge over at houseonhillroad. I have completed two pillows and it is day two! I have just been too busy to upload pics. Hopefully I will post some tomorrow.
The first pillow I worked on was actually a repair. I restuffed it. Maybe that wasn't cheating. It really needed done. The second pillow was also a repair, but a little more involved. It needed four new tassles and a seam had come loose. The tassles were beyond repair so I crocheted new ones. I love how they turned out. This pillow required total reconstruction so it was definitely not a cheat.
Both pillows belonged to daughters of mine.
Two down and five to go!

Favorite Photo of the Day!

2010-11-04T18:11:00.004-05:00

This morning I received a call telling me my new great nephew had arrived! His name is Wyatt (undetermined middle name). He weighed 8 lbs.
He is pictured here with his mom and big brother Mason. Mason was much more interested in seeing his mommy! lol
I can't wait to see him and hold him.

Next Week

2010-11-04T17:41:00.004-05:00

I plan to do this next week.
I have a few ideas to start with. The challenge is to make seven pillows. I will try to complete one each day, but one or two of the projects may just be repairs on pillows I've already made. I made a pillow for Kaitlyn a while back that has become flat with lots of use. I need to re-stuff the insert. I have promised to make a pillow similar to this one for a friend since last summer. Courtney has requested a few more for her apartment. The only problem I foresee is narrowing my choices down to seven!

It's Time to Wash Some Feet

2010-10-21T07:49:00.003-05:00

As I was browsing a few of my favorite blogs this morning, I ran across this on Message International. These words rang true in my heart so I thought I would share them here. I encourage you to read Lisa's books. They are deep and life-changing. She is a gifted from the Lord author. Reading a few of her books have ignited a fire in my heart to draw closer to God. They challenge me to be who God called me to be.

A prophetic word for women & church leaders...

I woke this morning with such an urgency to share the following excerpt from Lioness Arising. I believe it is an urgent and prophetic word for Church leaders and God’s women. I shared this portion with John and he said he wished EVERY church leader could hear it...so here is our attempt. Feel free to re-post and share as you feel led.

Then turning to the woman, but speaking to Simon, (Jesus) said, “Do you see this woman? I came to your home; you provided no water for my feet, but she rained tears on my feet and dried them with her hair. You gave me no greeting, but from the time I arrived she hasn’t quit kissing my feet. You provided nothing for freshening up, but she has soothed my feet with perfume. Impressive, isn’t it? She was forgiven many, many sins, and so she is very, very grateful. If the forgiveness is minimal, the gratitude is minimal.”
(Luke 7:43–47)

When we imagine that we are above the need for heart grooming, we start judging others. In judgment we deny others what we ourselves need. This is what happened to Simon. He needed his feet washed. He needed the greeting of peace. He needed the healing of an anointing balm. But since he thought he was above needing these things, he did not offer any of these rituals of greeting and grooming to his guests.

I can’t help but wonder if Jesus has turned his face to the women as he poses a question to the legalistic leaders of our day, asking something like this: “You think the sin of the woman is too great for her to merit acknowledgment, so you ignore her. You imagine she is in some way less than in my charge to present the gospel, but I have highlighted the example of this woman—and thus exonerated women. You imagine Eve’s sin to be greater than Adam’s, and therefore you deny her daughters access to my table, but don’t forget that those who are forgiven much are all the more grateful. A place of honor will be found for these daughters, even if it is by way of washing and anointing my feet.”

Lovely lionesses, it is time we again give our glorious Lord something to brag about. To see this happen, I am willing to wash some feet and have mine washed. Let’s each be willing to do anything or go anywhere if it means Jesus will have reason to marvel when he looks our way. Simon thought this loose woman was falling all over Jesus, but Jesus called her awkward attempts lovely. Don’t worry if your attempts are awkward at first. Just commit to begin. I want us all to make this kind of impression on Jesus so that he would say of us, “I am impressed they have shown me so much love.”

Let’s do something wonderfully significant for our Lord. As we lavish kindness, grooming, and welcome on others, we pour out our adoration on him. Let’s anoint one another for his return and our resurrection. Let’s wash each others feet, even if it is with our tears. Let them fall unhindered until there is enough moisture to wash the dust and filth off the feet of the church. Let’s weep over our own sins and cry over the injustice levied on our sisters and children the world over. If the mercy that has been lavished on you is not enough to reduce you to tears, then allow the cruelty of the plight of captive daughters to move you. Your tears wash the feet of others and magnify our Lord.

(The above is an excerpt from “Lioness Arising: Wake Up and Change Your World,” Waterbrook Multnomah Publishing Group, 2010.)

Sewing Groove

2010-10-17T08:58:00.003-05:00

I've got my groove back on! I have to just sew like a maniac when the mood hits. I am currently working on three quilts. I would like to have them all finished be the end of the year. Christmas, to be more exact. Two are for gifts. The other is a fall quilt, so it would be nice to have it finished before it becomes winter.
Also this week I completed a little pillow that Aubree had embroidered. I've mostly made pillows this year. They come together quickly and you feel a sense of accomplishment. That is very important to me. Otherwise I would be continually frustrated with sewing. I would have a hard time completing the larger more time consuming projects. That would cause me to have too many projects going or give up alltogether. I have been known to have up to sixteen projects going at one time! CRAZINESS!
Hopefully I will have some pictures up soon.

Latest Projects

2010-10-08T17:20:00.003-05:00

Jace's pillow is finally finished. He waited very patiently for it.

And pictured below is a theraputic heat bag that I made for my mom.

Family Visit

2010-10-08T16:59:00.004-05:00

Several years ago we moved 500 miles away from my hometown. We have moved several times since then. That first move was one of the hardest. It is hard to move away from the only thing you have ever known. Not only did we move away from all of our extended family, my Mom lived next door to us. My kids had grown up with the freedom to walk next door to see "Gobug", their grandma, whenever they wanted.
For us, moving that far away, meant probably only yearly visits, at most. The expense and scheduling conflicts with my husband's job and five children made visiting more often almost impossible. We eventually moved a little closer and had more frequent visits. Then we even moved back for a short while. Now, we again, live 500 miles away.
All that to say...
Last week we had a wonderful visit at our home with my mom and sister!
We had a wonderful time. We went out to eat, went shopping, had our hair and nails done, and enjoyed relaxing. I can't wait until the next visit. I'm already planning things for us to do!

Race For The Cure!

2010-10-02T11:20:00.006-05:00

Kaitlyn and Kyla ran in the Susan G. Comen Race for the Cure. It was an early morning, but I was very proud of them. Their basketball team ran in honor of their coach who is a breast cancer survivor and in memory of a team-mate's mom.

TEEN CHALLENGE GRADUATION!

2010-07-29T10:31:00.003-05:00

Just a little over a year ago, we drove our son to Teen Challenge of El Paso. I remember having mixed feelings and being full of various emotions. On one hand I was reluctant to leave my son in the hands of strangers. But mostly I felt so proud of the decision he had made and I felt he was totally safe in God's hands.
I recall having the most restful sleep that first night. I experienced the peace that passes all understanding. I didn't go to bed worrying about his safety for the first time in several years.

Dear Shelby,
A few months before you made the decision to go to Teen Challenge, God promised our family restoration. I'm so overwhelmed with the goodness of God. He never fails us. I am so proud of you for making a stand to change your life and serve God. I am a very blessed Mama! I know this has been a hard year, but growing pains are never easy. I am blessed to have a son who can stand up and do hard things. It is amazing to be a witness to the power of God. With God, all things are possible!
I Love You!

We were given the opportunity to speak a few words about Shelby.

Tearful Testimony! (happy tears!)

We love you, son!

Teen Challenge Graduation (part 2)

2010-07-28T13:17:00.012-05:00

Proud daddy!

Big sister testifying how she had to stop fighting with him and start fighting for him!

She has her best friend back!

Teen Challenge staff and former graduates speaking.

A hug from Pastor Albert.

Teen Challenge Graduate!

Shelby giving his testimony.

Shelby with the cake that Ms. Mary made him.

The family!

Kaitlyn singing to her big brother.

Shelby with Teen Challenge director, Pastor Albert Iberra.

Shelby with the girls!

I'm so proud of my son!

There Is Power In The Blood!

2010-07-20T20:26:00.000-05:00

Would you be free from the burden of sin?
There’s pow’r in the blood, pow’r in the blood;
Would you o’er evil a victory win?
There’s wonderful pow’r in the blood.
Refrain:
There is pow’r, pow’r, wonder-working pow’r
In the blood of the Lamb;
There is pow’r, pow’r, wonder-working pow’r
In the precious blood of the Lamb.
Would you be free from your passion and pride?
There’s pow’r in the blood, pow’r in the blood;
Come for a cleansing to Calvary’s tide;
There’s wonderful pow’r in the blood.
Would you be whiter, much whiter than snow?
There’s pow’r in the blood, pow’r in the blood;
Sin-stains are lost in its life-giving flow;
There’s wonderful pow’r in the blood.
Would you do service for Jesus your King?
There’s pow’r in the blood, pow’r in the blood;
Would you live daily His praises to sing?
There’s wonderful pow’r in the blood.

Lost Generation

2010-07-16T19:37:00.000-05:00

MOVING

2010-07-12T08:24:00.005-05:00

Not sure where. We are staying in the same town. We just have to find a new house.
Last week we had a lot of rain. It is still raining. We discovered that our roof was leaking in numerous places. The leaks set off a series of unfortunate consequeces. The electrical wiring to the ac was fried. Then for no reason other than everything else was damaged, the kitchen sink decided not to drain.
The roof leaks caused so much damage to my youngest daughter's room that we had to trash almost everything she owned. Even her mattress was ruined.
We have spent the last week cleaning and packing. We haven't located a new house yet, but that shouldn't be a problem. I hope.
Times of transition are not always pleasant. As the mom, I try to make the best of it. If my attitude is bad everyone seems to have a bad attitude.
After working all week in the wet carpet and molded walls I had to find a way for us to stay sane. We decided to move the travel trailor to an rv park. Wonderful idea.
Now we can go to the house to work, get something accomplished, and then have a way to leave it all behind for a while. In the midst of this storm we have a place of refuge.

Isaiah 4:6 And there will be a tabernacle for shade in the daytime from the heat, for a place of refuge, and for a shelter from storm and rain.

This Is The Reason

2010-07-08T10:25:00.005-05:00

We have moved, A LOT! I have been asked by several people throughout the years how do we handle moving so much. Would I love to be able to settle down in one home for the rest of my life? Sure. This has just not been the journey that was laid before us. So, this is the reason I choose to be content...

This World Is Not My Home

This world is not my home I'm just passing through
my treasures are laid up somewhere beyond the blue
the angels beckon me from Heaven's open door
and I can't feel at home in this world anymore
O Lord you know I have no friend like you
if Heaven's not my home then Lord what will I do?
the angels beckon me from Heaven's open door
and I can't feel at home in this world anymore

They're all expecting me and that's one thing I know
my savior pardoned me and now I onward go
I know He'll take me through though I am weak and poor
and I can't feel at home in this world anymore
O Lord you know I have no friend like you
if Heaven's not my home then Lord what will I do?
the angels beckon me from Heaven's open door
and I can't feel at home in this world anymore

Just up in Glory Land we'll live eternally
the Saints on every hand are shouting victory
their song of sweetest praise drifts back from Heaven's shore
and I can't feel at home in this world anymore
O Lord you know I have no friend like you
if Heaven's not my home then Lord what will I do?
the angels beckon me from Heaven's open door
and I can't feel at home in this world anymore

How To Finish A Quilt In Seven Days (More or Less)

2010-07-01T16:53:00.006-05:00

I have a quilt top that Courtney hand pieced when she was eighteen. That was FOUR years ago. I found it folded in her closet. I realized that it was a shame for it to sit there, not being enjoyed, after she had painstakingly cut and sewn each square. She even had added alot of quirky touches, like frayed fabric with a contrasting fabric peeking through, an odd button or rhinestone here and there, or a randomly placed little bow. I'm not by any means an experienced quilter. I'm definitely still a beginner. I do think I have gained enough quilting knowledge to help her finish it. When completed, she will have a quilt that we both worked on. I can't wait to have this project finished, but I had to come up with some incentive to get started!

Day 1: Piece the backing
enjoy the accomplishment of getting started by getting a pedicure
Day 2: Pin baste the quilt sandwich, and trim front, batting, and back to the same size
that was quite a bit of work! enjoy a trip to the book store!
Day 3: make binding strips from excess fabric
that wasn't so bad but at least treat yourself to Starbuck's
Day 4: machine quilt
ok! that was alot of work!!! enjoy a nice hot bubble bath!
Day 5: attach binding to quilt front by machine
almost done. after sewing all four sides inform your family that they will be taking you out to dinner tonight!
Days 6 & 7: Hand sew binding to quilt backing
this is best accomplished while watching movies

Note: The seven days it takes to complete this quilt do not have to be consecutive!!!

2010-06-30T08:39:00.004-05:00

Yesterday my oldest daughter turned 22! It is so hard to believe she is all grown up. I can remember her as a baby like is was yesterday. It is so true that time flies as you get older.
She is such an amazing blessing to my life. I'm very proud of the young woman she has become.
In honor of her birthday, her sisters and I, threw her a little impromtu party. I cooked her a simple home-cooked meal that I knew she would love. We had pork chops, pork & beans, and noodles with tomatoes & cheese. That may sound silly for a birthday meal, but these were "comfort" foods that I knew she would love. Kyla made her strawberry cupcakes with chocolate frosting. We decorated the table with some princess items, because no matter how old she gets, she will always be our princess!
I love you Courtney!!!

Sewing Spurts

2010-06-30T07:45:00.006-05:00

On my sidebar I made a goal of completing one project per month. I did good the first couple of months this year, then...
Oh well, life happens. I love to sew but I can't seem to find time on a consistent basis. Usually if the mood hits me to sew, I sew for a few days. I don't get anything else accomplished though! I would like to try and set aside some time daily. Even thirty minutes would be enough to complete a few things. My other issue is I like to sew when I'm feeling creative. This seems to come in spurts! (just like my sewing!)
Here are my completed projects this week!

An embroidered throw pillow for my bed in the RV.

I finally finished this little quilt! I laid it aside a while back when I only had the binding left. I was intimidated to make my own binding! But as it turns out, it really wasn't that hard!

And these last two pillows I made for my daughter Courtney. She has requested several items for her new apartment. I loved making these! I used some of the same fabrics that will be in a quilt I'm making for her.

2010-06-29T23:28:00.000-05:00

I will be posting pictures of my latest projects in the morning.

He Meets Me Where I Am

2010-06-21T17:43:00.004-05:00

God and I have been having some awesome talks lately! Actually I'm learning to do a lot less talking and a lot more listening. It's amazing the things we can learn if we can just learn to be still...and listen.
I've always known my calling. I have never really doubted it. God placed a huge desire in my heart to be a wife and mom. I've always known my ministry begins in my home. Do I think I have done a great job? Hardly. Some days, yes I do okay. But it is the days that I feel I only-sort-of-kind-of-maybe resemble what God called me to be that I learn the most. I learn that I wasn't meant to walk this journey alone. God wants to walk beside me. He doesn't complain that I need Him every hour! He loves it! Sometimes fear tries to grip me. It says, "Your kids see how impatient you are" or "You'll never be able to manage this household properly". I could go on and on. But I am learning to hear The Voice. The One who speaks the Truth. I don't have to do it all perfectly. I just have to show up, live life in the now, and Jesus is already there. He's been waiting on me.

We have to choose what we let our ears hear and our eyes see. If all we put in is garbage, then how do we expect treasures to pour out?
I've discovered a few new blogs recently that have encouraged me in my calling.
I hope they encourage you also.

This blog is all about encouraging you in your marriage. Wonderful.

I've also been enjoying reading this! By the way, I love the name!

One more I have recently discovered (which led me to the other two!) is THIS.

I love, love, love, this site. I am planning to use this site alot during our next school year!

Rearview Mirror

2010-06-18T09:03:00.005-05:00

This (look in the small round mirror) is what tried to follow us home. It wasn't a tornado, but is sure looked like one!
And last week I thought happiness was Lubbock, TX in my rearview mirror!

My Hard Workin' Man

2010-06-18T08:23:00.003-05:00

I got to spend a little time with my husband yesterday while he was working. I appreciate all he does for his family, so much. He is the hardest working man I know. He doesn't take sick days, he doesn't get enough rest, he goes to work EVERY DAY! If something needs done, he does it! I call him "my get it done kind of man"!

I love you Randy! Thank you for being a wonderful hard working provider. You will never know how priveleged I feel to have a husband who has worked so hard to let me be a stay at home mommy!

Mom Week!

2010-06-13T17:55:00.003-05:00

After this evening when I take Aubree to Courtney's house, I will be spending the week alone. Of course my husband will be home in the evenings after work, but all of my girls will be at church camp. What oh what will I do?
I'm going to spend half the day tomorrow cleaning house. Then, I will be off to the RV to enjoy the rest of the week! I'm not going to plan my time. I'm just going to spend my days doing whatever I feel like.
There may be a little reading, a little sunbathing, movie watching, and who knows! I've been looking forward to this for a few weeks. I'm sure I will miss my kids. I just hope they have a blast at camp, I have a few relaxing days, and some wonderful evenings spent with my honey!

Then...

2010-06-10T20:14:00.002-05:00

Today, Aubree and I visited the Western Heritage Museum Complex & Lea County Cowboy Hall of Fame. She loved all of the Indian artifacts. Also a big hit was Gus the animated robotic cowboy thingy. (how was that for a description?) He was very life-like. You can ask him questions about ranch life and things. He will answer you by computer controlled technology. Pretty neat, but a little creepy. We even found out the ingredients for Son-Of-A-Gun Stew. Don't ask!
I was able to buy a coloring book in the gift shop about New Mexico. Being the sneaky homeschool mom I am, she "did" school today without even realizing it!
I picked up a few free brochures also. Sometime during our NM stay we will work on her notebook. She is learning alot about the wildlife, plants, and NM state symbols. I love homeschooling.
Then we enjoyed the pool here at the RV park all to ourselves.
I would have to say we had a wonderful week.

So Far This Week...

2010-06-08T20:01:00.006-05:00

Aubree and I have been having a blast!

Randy bought us rod & reels. (mine is pink!) He taught us how to cast. (I already knew, but I let him teach me anyway, hahaha!) Then he took us to this little lake in town. Each of us caught a fish. I'm looking forward to going again soon. Maybe the girls and I will even go alone.

Then on Tuesday, Aubree and I enjoyed going to the movie theater while Randy was working. Cute movie and perfect for dog-crazy Aubree!

We have a couple of days left before we pick up the girls for the weekend. Who knows what else we may find to enjoy?

Bittersweet

2010-06-08T07:22:00.003-05:00

I'm sitting outside in a nice little RV park in New Mexico. The weather is wonderful. It is quiet and calm. I love early mornings. With the one hour time difference I'm able to be up even earlier with very little effort. I'm loving it.
This week the teens are away at church camp. I am having a very rare opportunity to spend some much needed time alone with my youngest.
Being "the baby" of five children, it seems that she would just be able to consume lots of attention. At times she does! I've just noticed lately that alot of it is negative. This quiet time is allowing me to see just how much she is shuffled among our too busy schedule!
Having two teen daughters who are extremely active (and non-drivers) makes for a hectic schedule to say the least. No one could ever accuse my homeschoolers of not having enough social interaction. They are very social by nature. Myself, on the other hand can be quite content with long periods of time spent alone.
My youngest had a hard time last week. We were informed by some neighbors with children her age that they no longer wanted their children to play with her. I tried to have a conversation with them, just to be clear of their reasoning. I walked away completely confused.
The problem is definitely not because I think my children "can do no wrong". I will be the first person to tell you that we are not a perfect family. I do however feel it is my responsibility to be informed.
I feel I have learned alot in my almost 22 years of parenting, but by no means do I think I know it all! I do understand that I have five very different children with very distict unique personalities. I can see similarities, but the differences are what amazes me.
We serve such an awesome God! He alone could populate a world where no two people are exactly alike.
I think she learned a very hard life lesson this week for a nine year old. Not everyone is going to like us. Our family may do things a little different than the people next door. That is okay.
The most important thing I would like for her to know is that she is loved with a love that surpasses anything she could imagine. She has a family that loves her but most importantly she has Jesus.
He loves her so much that He made a special week for her to have some undivided attention from her parents. He loves her so much that he protected her from the harsh comments of neighbors who don't really know her. He loves her so much that He died for her.
Yes, this past week is a little bittersweet. Life lessons can be rough. I'm thankful that I was able to absorb the brunt of harshness for my baby. I am thankful for being the one who gets to comfort her.

New Wheels in the Neighborhood

2010-06-02T23:51:00.003-05:00

Today, Shelby got a new ride!

So happy for him and so proud of him!

And Aubree is enjoying her new ride too!

Just Right

2010-05-30T13:26:00.003-05:00

There isn't alot going on around here and that is just fine with me. We have enjoyed our weekend together. Randy took us to the mall on friday and we spent the evening with some new friends on saturday. Today he is working all day. The girlies are at the pool. We leave in the morning, so I will be cleaning and doing laundry. Hopefully I'll put aside a little time to cut out the new quilt I have planned.
I'm still enjoying our part time rv living. It is wonderful to spend half of the week away from all the demands of life. It is so funny that we are doing some of the same things but the pressure isn't present. I still have to cook, clean, do laundry, etc. I don't even mind running to town for this or that. At home it is so annoying to run out of something and have to go to Walmart! I'm not sure what the difference is. I just know that I'm considering this time in the rv to be a complete and awesome gift from God!
Next weekend we hope to visit a museum and maybe check out a unique local attraction or two. There is a site nearby where a meteor landed, a model of stonehenge, and the world's largest jackrabbit statue.
It's all about enjoying time with each other.

Yes, She Talked Me Into It!

2010-05-25T22:00:00.003-05:00

Summer basketball!

Some Weekend Highlights

2010-05-25T14:31:00.004-05:00

The weather,
(if you look closely you can see TWO rainbows!)

the wildlife,

and the wild kiddos!

Weekend!

2010-05-20T14:46:00.003-05:00

I have spent alot of time doing some heavy reading! It has been wonderful and very thought provoking, but...
I AM READY TO JUST HAVE FUN THIS WEEK!
The girls and I are planning to do a little shopping, a little swimming, and a whole lot of relaxing this weekend. I can't wait.
I'm also hoping to fit in a little bit of sewing. I'm a little behind on my goal of finishing at least one project per month. I have three projects in the works, so that should catch me up.
I'm also contemplating this. I've been collecting vintage pillowcases for a couple of years. I was just waiting on the right project to catch my eye. I think this will be perfect.
I'm looking forward to a wonderful weekend and I hope to have pictures to share.

He Knew

2010-05-09T12:18:00.003-05:00

I knew I was looking forward to our little get away in the RV, but I didn't know how much I would love it. God's wisdom surpasses all that we could ever ask or even begin to know we need! He knew I needed a break. He knew I needed some time to breathe. I needed to be able to be still. I needed to have the quiet time to absorb the changes that He is bringing to my life. He knew I needed a new adventure.
I feel so overwhelmingly blessed to have a Father who loves me so much and gives me exactly what I need even when I'm unaware.

Sweet Summer

2010-05-05T09:24:00.002-05:00

Our official school year is coming to a close. We have had such a busy year. I'm looking forward to some much needed down time. We will begin our RV adventure this week. I think the timing couldn't be better.
I have been having fun planning and decorating our new little space. The bedroom is only lacking some new little curtains. I have plans to begin the bedding in the girls' little bunk bed area. The table/booth and sofa may be re-upholstered later, if I feel ambitious.
I plan to keep this space very minimal but also homey. We will be spending about half of our time there. I want everyone to be able to relax and enjoy our time together.
I'm looking forward to spending lots of time this summer playing games, swimming, and just loving my family.

Change is in the Air

2010-04-22T14:30:00.007-05:00

I'm not a person who readily accepts change. Of course, no one loves unpleasant changes. But, what about changes for the better? Wouldn't a person jump for joy at the opportunity for a change for the better? Well, I'm one of those hesitant "changers". Is it fear? Probably. On the other hand, change can also be a wonderful surprise!
Within a very short time period (not enough warning!) my husband was informed of yet another location change for his job.
When we moved to our current town, I was so sure this would be our last stop on the moving trail. Who doesn't want to put down roots? How are you supposed to bloom-where-you-are-planted if you don't stay still long enough for the blooming process?
Is six months long enough to bloom? One year? Two years?
These are the time periods we have lived in most places.
After eleven homes in our seventeen years of marriage, you would think we would learn how to quickly plant ourselves, get a great root system in place, and water regularly. Sometimes it just seems as if the only step we remembered was to apply too much fertilizer!
So, after learning that our next move would involve two moves, not just one, we had to seek God for His wonderful creativity. Moving is hard work, and expensive! Why would anyone willingly do it twice within just a few months?
Then as I prayed I had a thought enter my mind that felt, well...a little crazy! I thought about mentioning it to my husband but decided he would confirm that I was crazy.
I held on to this crazy little thought of mine for a few days only jokingly mentioning it to my oldest daughter. Just in case this was an idea the Lord was giving me, I wanted someone to be able to verify it.
Fast forward through a very stressful week of decision making...
As my husband and I are having one of our many daily phone conversations, he casually mentions that he stopped to look at an RV. This is not completely unusual. We have been talking and daydreaming of owning one for quite a while.
The difference, this time, was the crazy little idea floating around in my head.
I decided to go for it. Yes, he might disagree, but we were quickly approaching our deadline.
The conversation included alot of, "You go first", "I wasn't going to go there first", and "this might work".
We came to the conclusion that the Lord had been working the same "crazy" idea in both of us!
So, the crazy idea:
We will not be moving (at least Yet!). We will be adventurously living between our home here and our new little RV. This will keep us from making two major moves this summer. There is even a possibility that we won't be moving at all.
I love the way God answered our prayers. He worked the same idea in both of us. We have our dilemma solved, for a while, and when all is finally decided...we have an RV to travel and enjoy with our family!
God knew the solution all along. We just had to be willing to hear His voice and act upon it. I read the book, Fearless by Max Lucado recently. I believe that God has been stretching me beyond my own abilities over the last couple of years, but He has held me the entire time. When I fear change, I have to realize that He knows what is ahead. He goes before us. We are learning to trust in Him!

Love & Respect

2010-04-20T12:39:00.002-05:00

Love & Respect by Dr. Emerson Eggerichs should be required reading for all married couples. This book is full of the simple clear truth of the Bible that is so easily overlooked or misunderstood. Anyone who has ever studied God's word in order to improve their marriage or to understand their role as husband or wife is probably very familiar with the scriptures in which this book is based.
It is just amazing to me that I could quote alot of these scriptures by heart, but was not applying them. This book has been a very eye-opening experience for my husband and myself.
He has listened and relistened to this book on audio cd's. I prefer the print copy and have been reading/journalling chapter by chapter.
I think we tend to overcomplicate most things. God's word goes deep but usually brings us back to the simple truth. God didn't make this life too difficult to do His way.

From my reading this morning:
"Obviously, when the sparks fly and a couple has a conflict, serious or minor, there is a risk. It can go one of two ways. Sparks can cause a controllable fire that heats the house and makes things warm and comfortable. Or sparks can set a wildfire that burns the house down. All married couples must realize that the sparks are going to be there. The question is, how will you control them?" ---taken from Love & Respect by Dr. Emerson Eggerichs

Kaitlyn's Butterflies

2010-04-14T11:01:00.002-05:00

Girls Basketball Banquet 2010

2010-04-11T11:19:00.002-05:00

The Lady Titans enjoyed a wonderful evening celebrating an awesome year of basketball. Basketball season is always very hectic, but full of memories. I love the night of the banquet. Not only because it signifies the close of the season and the hope to catch up on life, but remembering why we spend our time doing this.
Throughout the season, I often wonder why! Basketball consumes too much of our lives at times. I love to watch my girls play, but it is just sooooo daily! On the other hand, devoted practice time is necessary to compete at the level they play.
Another reason the banquet is so enjoyable for me is to see just how beautiful and girly these awesome athletes really are. They work so hard at practice and during games. We see them all year sweaty, red-faced, and dressed in athletic wear. They are beautiful girls always, but it's nice to see them all dressed up!
We enjoyed a delicious fajita dinner, celebrated their accomplishments, and absolutley enjoyed the company.

2010-03-26T16:02:00.001-05:00

One More Thing

2010-03-23T16:45:00.001-05:00

Pictures to follow soon!

Whew!

2010-03-23T16:00:00.002-05:00

We have had a very eventful, busy 10 days. Last Sunday we headed out to Springfield, MO. to the National Homeschool Basketball Championships. Monday through Saturday were filled with basketball games, visiting with friends, and more basketball games. We ate out three meals a day and stayed in a hotel each night. Neither of those activities agree very well with me. I love to go out to eat but not 24 meals in a row! I love to stay in nice hotels, but I never sleep as well as in my own bed. Before it sounds like this is just a complaint post, I do want to say we had fun. I was just very happy to be heading home the following Sunday.
The drive home was not without its own drama. First of all, we travelled about halfway home in snow. That may not mean alot to all of you who are accustomed to travelling in snow, but for this East Texas clan it was a little stressful.
The next bit of excitement came in the form of a vibrating car. After arriving in Springfield earlier that week, we detected a slight vibration while driving around town. My husband didn't seem to think it was a major problem. He said the tires may be out of balance. Then, on the way home, after driving out of the snow, we were able to travel at a higher rate of speed. Even though we were "making better time" the vibration became much worse. We stopped several times for him to check the tires. He couldn't find anything wrong with them. After travelling 500! miles, he decided we should probably have someone look at the tires. He called Walmart service center who just happened to be closing. The very kind employee told us he would keep everything open until we got there.
He changed both of our back tires. One of them had a split about halfway around with seperated steel belts and one place about 2 inches long that was almost transparent! My husband wasn't able to see the problem because it was on the inside.
We finally made it home a little after midnight. The 11 hour trip took us about 15.
We collapsed in bed and slept like logs! My poor husband had to cut his nap short to get back to work the next day.
When I got up Monday morning I hit the floor running. I had to attend to several last minute details. My middle daughter was scheduled for knee surgery the next morning. After jumping through hoops and clearing buildings with a single bound, we settled in for the evening only to meet a new little "pet" my husband decided to save. Yay! (sarcastically)
Unable to sleep due to the anxiety of my child having surgery, I finally fell asleep sometime past midnight.
My alarm clock felt like my worst enemy at 5am!
Randy, Kaitlyn, and I got dressed and left home early to arrive at the surgical center by six (almost). After a little waiting and a little paperwork and a couple of hefty checks, she went into surgery about 7:30. In a couple of worrisome hours, she came out with a brand new ACL and leftover "I don't care" medicine.
We left around noon with our loopy new-kneed daughter and some really cool pictures to boot. How many people can say they have ever seen the inside of their knee? Only one in my house! (let's keep it that way!!!)
Now I am home. Finally. I can unpack, do laundry, and start living my normal life again. I hope.

Springfield, Here We Come!

2010-03-13T12:49:00.003-06:00

Laundry, check.
Bags packed, almost check.
Car cleaned and ready to go, check.
House in order (somewhat), check.

We are almost ready to hit the road!
Other than some last minute shopping, we are good to go.

The girls are looking forward to SPRING BREAK!

Spring Break

2010-03-12T14:09:00.002-06:00

Packing and all the other preparations that are required for 5 people to go on an 8 day trip are enough reason to need a vacation. I already need a vacation from my vacation.
If you can call a week long basketball tournament a vacation...hmmm.
Either way, vacation or work, I'm ready to get out of town. I need a change of scenery.
Actually this yearly event is one that is greatly anticipated by my whole family. What could be better? We get to spend an entire week watching our girls play basketball, eat out, and spend time with friends. We love it.
We will be heading to Springfield, Missouri in a couple of days. We reserved our room in plenty of time to get a suite, unlike last year.
I'm attending to all of the last minute details, like occupying kids for 9 hours in the car. I think I'm almost ready to go!

Homeschooling Fun

2010-03-09T09:16:00.007-06:00

I just realized I haven't written anything about our homeschool in quite a while.
Other than our basics, Aubree is hugely interested in Native Americans. I went to one of my favorite free resources to supplement our studies. This is a site we turn to often to find lapbooking/notebooking pages.
Her interest in studying Indians or Native Americans began with a penmanship book (Draw*Write*Now) that we started around Thanksgiving. After completing the lessons she still wanted to know more.
Currently we are working on a lapbook based on the story, The Courage of Sarah Noble.
We will follow with book studies on Pocahontas and Sign of the Beaver.
We plan to make a teepee (Barbie size) and other crafts from the book More than Moccasins.
This site also has a free resource based on the Iriquois Indians.
We are having alot of fun and will continue our studies throughout the remainder of the school year, or until interests change.
One of the most enjoyable aspects of homeschooling is the ability to study the particular interests of individual children.

Update on Shelby

2010-03-06T22:42:00.004-06:00

Today I recieved a newsletter from Teen Challenge. Featured in the newsletter was the following featured student:

Shelby Dean Slaton
Age: 19
# Siblings: 4

Favorite Sports Team: Cowboys
Favorite Meal: Cheeseburgers
Favorite Author: Rob Bell/Shane Claiborne
Favorite Scripture: "He who dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide in the shadow of the Almighty." (Psalm 91:1)

Brief History: My drug problem started at age 13. Over the years I would suppress my anger over my parents' divorce through the use of more and more drugs. By the time I was 18, I was a chronic drinker and smoker. A day didn't go by that I wasn't getting high on various drugs. I lost all my relationships with my family and hated who I had become. The drugs became my identity and I didn't like that.

My Turning Point: I believed that there had to be something more to life than dying daily and destroying anything and everything I put my hands on. My mom had always told me about Christ growing up and deep down in my numb heart, I knew He was the one I needed and that He is the one I was called to be with.

Bright Outlook: My entire life has been changed--my thought processes, self-image, my personality, my hope, joy, and love have been and are being restored. Most of all I am pressing into a true, loving and intimate relationship with God. I plan on working for Youth for Christ and finding my place that God has set apart for me in His ministry.

Encouragement to Others: Get spriritually strong and fed by clinging to God, reading the Word, staying plugged in to church and most of all--pray to God in humility.

Wow, to hear the words of my son...
This has been a long and very hard journey, but I want to encourage everyone to never give in, never give up, and never never never underestimate the Power of God!

2010-03-06T22:10:00.000-06:00

2010-03-04T06:38:00.002-06:00

I'm looking forward to the National Homeschool Basketball Championships. It is only a little over a week away. This will be our 4th year to attend. Kaitlyn won't be playing this year due to a knee injury. Kyla will be playing on the 14 and under team. It is a fun week of basketball and spending time with friends, old and new.
I haven't managed to take many basketball pictures this season because of lens issues. I will try to make up for it during Nationals.
When we return home, Kaitlyn will be having knee surgery. She is looking forward to putting this behind her and getting back to doing the things she loves!

Girl's Night Out

2010-03-02T11:22:00.002-06:00

I'm looking forward to this evening! We are having a ladies meeting at our church. I love this time of fellowship.
We are starting a new study by Lisa Bevere. (Nuture)
I am going with great anticipation and expecting God to do great things.
This is just the refreshment I need!

Bread Baking

2010-02-28T12:12:00.002-06:00

I love baking, but not All baking. I can bake a cake but I don't love cake. Cupcakes? Yeah, I like them more. I can bake a pie, but I don't love making crust! I'd rather buy it. I don't bake good cookies. Never have. I leave the cookie baking to my daughters. They do it better.
The baking I love is bread baking! The bread machine is wonderful because as much as I love to bake bread, I don't love to knead! A few months ago I bought a bread machine cookbook at Big Lots for about $5. Great buy. Seven ingredients, a couple of hours, and a wonderful loaf of rectangular crusty bread. In my house it lasts about 5 minutes! This is a great and easy method, with a wonderful result, if I can be home all day. The crust isn't "crusty" if you don't remove immediately and eat while warm.
Then, I heard about Artisan Bread in Five Minutes a Day. This book has given me a new love for home baked bread. This wonderful method allows you to mix a large amount of dough to refrigerate. No kneading required. The recipe I tried gives you a beautifully round shaped "artisan" loaf. Best of all is the crusty outside with a tender chewy inside. Tastes delicious! This bread only requires four ingredients.
After you mix the dough, you take out what you need each day. This method requires very little work after the initial mixing. My family loves bread baking day, and it is something I love doing for them.

All About February

2010-02-15T17:44:00.002-06:00

So far, it has been a wonderful month! February is "my" month around here. All in one week (usually) I have a birthday, anniversary, and Valentine's Day.
Last year at this time I was in bed sick for a few weeks with pneumonia. It was awful. That made me appreciate this year even more. That and a renewed appreciation of my family. I already loved them dearly, but the last couple of years have made that fact even more apparent. I hope to be more intentional in the ways I show them how very special they are to me.
This February was very different than past years. I feel that at 41 I am so aware of how very blessed my life really is! I thought I knew this in my 20's, was unaware for most of my 30's, and I am totally aware of the fact that I am living my heart's desire in my 40's.
Thank you Jesus, Randy, and my kids for the life I always dreamed of. We all know it's not perfect, but what precious life lessons we are learning together. Good, bad, or even UGLY, I'm not trading any of our experiences for anything.
And that, friends, is what it is all about!

Love Isn’t Distracted | Sarah Markley

2010-02-12T17:41:00.001-06:00

Some more Sarah Markley love.
Her writing is wonderful. I find it honest and very relateable.
Love Isn’t Distracted | Sarah Markley

Happy Happy Days

2010-02-11T06:56:00.003-06:00

It has been a wonderful week. I celebrated my 41st birthday and our 17th anniversary. I cannot believe how fast time flies. This time of year is very busy for us, but we are planning an anniversary trip very soon.

If You Could Stand a Few Extra Pounds...

2010-02-05T17:34:00.007-06:00

The Pioneer Woman is keeping me from losing weight! I love her cooking blog but it is NOT lowfat! This week we have had her recipes for simple enchiladas, chicken and noodles with bacon cheese biscuits, and Italian drip beef. All wonderful. Next week I need to start counting Weight Watcher points. I also need to run about 100 miles!
Oh well, I enjoyed trying some new recipes, and eating them.
If you haven't tried the Pioneer Woman, I highly recommend her!

Pillow For My Sister

2010-01-29T10:10:00.004-06:00

Here are photos of the pillow I finally finished for my sister. When I found the John Deere fabric I knew I would make something for her. I just didn't know what. Anyway, it took quite a while to get started. I found this project on Sew Mama Sew a while back and fell in love with it. It was a free pattern from ohfransson.com .
Originally this was meant to be a birthday gift (last August!), but I think it is perfect for Valentine's Day.

Forced Day of Down Time

2010-01-28T20:00:00.010-06:00

Hey, I'll take it however I can get it!
I was awakened to the sound of howling wind at about 4am. I wasn't totally surprised. We had heard the forecast. We were expecting a winter storm.
First came the rain, then the freezing rain, and then the cracking and breaking of tree limbs. Lots of them.
I knew right away I wouldn't be leaving my house today.
I decided to bake. I baked a cake. The recipe is from one of my favorite blogs, the Pioneer Woman. Delicious.
I quickly realized I enjoyed the warmth of the stove. I cooked beans and cornbread. Comfort food.
My sweet husband built a nice fire in the fireplace and we all snuggled under our blankets for a movie.
Fitting with my cooking theme for the day we decided to watch Julie and Julia. I loved it.
I have never been very interested in Julia Child but I would now love to read her cookbook.
Wonderful day to be stuck indoors. I probably gained 5 lbs. But it was worth it.

Two Quick Finds

2010-01-26T08:32:00.003-06:00

Last night I found myself with only one child in my car. We were on our way home from an out of town basketball game. We decided it would be a great time to make a quick run to Starbuck's and quickly browse in Ross. I'm working on a couple of decorating projects so I headed straight to housewares. I always take a quick look through the book section also.
I was excited to find Sew U Home Stretch by Wendy Mullin and Amy Butler's Sew-It Kit. I paid $4.99 for each. If you sew and read sewing blogs you are probably aware of both of these designers. Happy, thrifty find!

100th Post!

2010-01-20T19:46:00.004-06:00

I just noticed that this marks my 100th post. It took me long enough! Not to bore anyone or anything, but I thought I would make a list of 100 things I love...

1. The Lord
2. My husband
my children:
3. Courtney
4. Shelby
5. Kaitlyn
6. Kyla
7. Aubree
8. My extended family (too many to list, but I love you all)
9. My old friends
10. My new friends
11. My church family (who are also my friends!)
12. My church
13. Homeschooling
14. That I get to be a stay at home mom
15. Reading
16. Sewing
17. Crocheting
18. Scrapbooking
19. Going out for breakfast
20. Date nights with my husband
21. Talking on the phone
22. Bubble baths
23. Coffee
24. Pedicures
25. Writing
26. Watching my kids play sports
27. Going to the hair salon
28. Bookstore
29. Fabric store
30. Family vacations
31. Vacationing with my husband
32. Bible studies
33. Art
34. Photography
35. Relaxing
36. Watching A & E
37. Fire in the fireplace
38. Bonfires
39. Learning new things
40. Scented candles
41. My Mama's fried chicken
42. Gospel music
43. Pie (almost any kind!)
44. The mountains
45. The beach
46. Boat rides
47. Snokeling
48. Diet Coke
49. Guacamole
50. Chocolate Covered Strawberries
51. Time alone in the early morning
52. Watching fireworks
53. Live music
54. Chocolate
55. Going barefoot
56. Babies
57. Sentimental movies
58. Suspenseful movies
60. Spicy food
61. Fresh peaches
62. Fresh tomatoes
63. Purple hull peas and cornbread
64. Journaling
65. Spring
66. Snowskiing
67. Singing with the radio
68. Getting dressed up
69. Not having to get dressed up
70. Talking with my kids
71. Looking at old photos
72. New school supplies
73. Freshly laundered sheets on a made up bed
74. Handmade quilts
75. Freshly fallen snow (the first day!)
76. Fresh baked bread
77. Baking
78. Trying new recipes
79. Camping
80. Reading to my kids
81. Reading to my husband
82. Laughing with my family
83. Being creative
84. Decorating my home
85. Making lists (hahaha)
86. Being at home!
87. Being in the country
88. Having so many homeschooling friends (after years of not knowing many homeschoolers)
89. Serving a God who loves me unconditionally
90. Being 40!
91. My iPhone
92. Shopping in thrift stores
93. Hot tubs
94. Breakfast in bed (sounds nice & I'm sure I'd love it)
95. Getting cards
96. Loyalty
97. Peanut M&M's
98. The color purple
99. Antique stores
100. Blogging

Redeeming Love

2010-01-18T07:42:00.004-06:00

I am reading Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers. I knew I would be reading it as soon as I located it. I have never seen such a strong reaction to a book as this. I first heard about this book a few weeks ago. I don't know how I missed out on such a great writer for so long. I guess it would be because I read so much nonfiction .
The funny thing about this book is that I keep encountering people who have already read it. They All have loved it and most will say it is the best book they have ever read.
I'm about halfway through already and I just started a couple of days ago. This one of those I-can't-put-this-book-down kind of books. I should be finished in a day or two.
I already plan to re-read this book. I'm not sure I have ever planned on a second reading during the first. It is THAT good.
So, even though I'm not finished, I am highly recommending this book if you are looking for a great read. Just make sure you have time in your schedule. You will start reading and you will not want to do anything else until you are finished!

I Heart Thrift Stores

2010-01-07T09:06:00.003-06:00

Yesterday my son and I went thrift store shopping. This happens to be a favorite outing with me amongst my kiddos. From the youngest to the oldest. They each have "their" special item they search for. For some it is a particular brand of jeans or maybe cool art supplies. For myself it is almost always books.
My "finds" yesterday were The Complete Book of Crochet by Elizabeth L. Mathieson, Knitting for Babies & Kids, and Soft Furnishings for Dollhouses. I was happy with the crochet book because it was first published in 1946. The second book, of knitting, is a goal I have this year. I've been wanting to teach myself to knit for a couple of years. Hopefully this will be the year. The third book just looked like a fun project to work on with my girls.
A couple of other things I bought were a pillow form still in package and a cool frame for Kaitlyn's latest artwork.
Shelby bought Banana Republic jeans and several American Eagle pullovers.
All for a little over $40.00.
Not a bad day of thrifting!

Kaitlyn is 15!

2010-01-05T10:30:00.007-06:00

Christmas of 1994 came and passed with anticipation and a little disappointment. I was convinced we would have a Christmas baby. By the 26th I was sure I would stay pregnant FOREVER! Why do the last few weeks of pregnancy feel like an eternity?
Then, on the 27th I was awakened very early thinking my waterbed had sprung a leak. Of course it didn't take long to realize we would be getting our little Christmas gift, finally.
I told my husband my water had broken. He responded with, "Light the hot water heater." Our little house was in need of a few repairs! He was half asleep and denies saying this to his wife who was in labor! (but he did!)
We gathered our things and headed to the hospital.
In about 4 hours, I held Pure Joy in my arms. Kaitlyn Noel. My best Christmas gift ever!

Having an almost Christmas birthday is hard! Kaitlyn usually misses out on the birthday party thing. We try to at least have a family party. We have travelled many years on her birthday to visit family.
This year was different.

Kaitlyn and two of her teammates share December birthdays. They collaborated together for a New Year's Day lock-in. They invited both the Jr. High and High School girls basketball teams and a few other friends. There were over 20 girls. They had a wonderful time of lots of snacking, game playing, and very little sleep!
I'm so glad she had a party this year. She is growing up so fast! Next year she will be driving!

Happy Birthday Kaitlyn. I hope you will always remember your fifteenth birthday!

Two Pet Day (not in a good way)

2010-01-03T18:33:00.004-06:00

Today, on January 3rd, I finally had my black eyed peas. It's a good thing I don't really believe those little legumes give good luck. On the other hand, we did have a pretty "unlucky" January 2nd.
I arrived home around 10 am. I had chaperoned a lock in for my newly turned 15 year old daughter and 20 or so of her closest friends. Needless to say I was beyond exhausted. I took a very short lived nap and was startled awake by the horrific screams of my 9 year old. (not a pleasant awakening!) She had accidentally left the dog and uncaged bird inthe same room unattended. A catastrophic event can take place in mere fractions of a second. The dog (Pancho) only reacted with his God-given animal instinct. The bird (Piper) never saw him coming.
To make matters worse, little Piper was determined to live, in spite of his half eaten condition.
Pancho was never supposed to be an indoor pet anyway. He made his inevitable trip to the animal shelter. We were assured that he would be adopted very quickly.
Piper was later buried with a small funeral service.
Thus making January 2nd, 2010 a two pet day.
My 9 year old suffered a huge heartbreak. Probably her worst so far.
Her beloved pets can never be replaced in her heart, but there is enough love to share with a new friend. Today her dad took her to buy a new parakeet. Her name is Sugar.

New Sewing Machine

2009-12-31T07:53:00.002-06:00

I finally, almost a week later, had a chance to read the operation manual to my new sewing machine. It can do way more than I am ready to do. I will be learning lots of new techniques this year. Some of them may be very basic to experienced sewers. For example, I have yet to install a zipper or make a button hole. I'm also looking forward to the quilting stitches. I can't wait to use the stippling stitch. However, the most exciting feature is that it embroiders. I already know exactly what I would like to monogram. I am just completely intimidated by this machine.
I hope I look back at this post in a few weeks and laugh at myself. I hope I find that this is way easier than it looks. I hope.
And by the way, I love it already!

Newest Art Projects

2009-12-29T08:57:00.003-06:00

Kaitlyn-age 15

Aubree-age 9

Courtney is teaching art classes at the Garden and Art Center. She teaches two classes each week. The girls take her homeschool class. Some months all three take her class, and some months one of them opts out. This month Kaitlyn and Aubree took a cartooning class. I was very impressed with their finished projects.

Inspired

2009-12-26T08:51:00.011-06:00

Thought I would post a few links. This is my list of blogs that I have been reading lately. When creativity is running low I can always find some inspiration.

This site has some wonderful ideas. I especially like that she uses mostly thrifted items. I also love her ideas for photos.

Another recent find is this. Love her creativity. This site truly "inspires" me. Yes, I would love to copy several of her ideas, but her blog has helped me to create some of my own. (in my mind!)

One last blog that inspires me is this! Yes, I know this has nothing to do with the usual creativity I post. This is creativity on a completely different level. I read this blog and start to believe I could do this. I am inspired!

Courtney's Christmas Party

2009-12-20T16:17:00.003-06:00

Here are some pictures from Courtney's Childrens Church party.

One Christmas Gift Completed

2009-12-17T11:05:00.007-06:00

I'm a little late posting this, but here is the doll blanket and pillow I made for Aubree. I love the little pillow made from ticking.

And here is the back.

Then with a bit of leftover fabric I decided to make a couple of diapers. These were very quick and easy.

I think she will love it. I'm so glad she still loves to play with dolls. So many of her friends think they are too old.

Each Day...A New Gift

2009-12-10T11:45:00.002-06:00

I wanted to share something I read today. I was browsing a few of my favorite blogs when I ran across this article. She is a great writer and this post touched my heart. You know, I think we all can probably admit to planning out our lives. I know I have been guilty of thinking if I do "this, this, and this", then "this, this, and this" will happen. Life isn't like that I have learned. Life can be full of lots of unexpected turns no matter what kind of "plans" you make. I'm starting to realize that I would never grow into the person God wants me to be if I could map out my own life.
Lord, Thank You for going before me. I know that You know the plans You have for me, to give me a hope and a future. Each day I walk with You is like opening a gift. I don't know what is inside, but You do.